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cathywback in January, my boss asked 'do you have an intern project?'
I did not have one in January. I came up with one in mid-March.
"Great," my boss said, "go hire that intern."
brain screeches. I have never hired anyone before. paperwork was confusing (and I was overthinking it). budget guy did something odd so that for a moment it looked like we did not have an intern in the budget but ultimately he signed off on it. job was posted.
then... I had to review the resumes.
oh god.
some of them were easy to rule out - 'you do not appear to be interested in working in my field or a related one in the long term so even though you do, in fact, have the major I'm looking for, good luck finding that medical research internship you would probably prefer.'
one of them was like 'you don't seem to be a good fit for my project but you appear to be a potentially great intern and possibly a permanent hire for that guy over there given some projects he's working on' and I had the recruiter forward the resume to him.
the rest of them? I had to rule up or down based on... the resume? the... vibes? mostly the vibes? screaming heebie-jeebies about this, "how will I know if I'm right?"
and then I realized I'm overthinking it again.
I'm hiring a summer intern. I do not have to be perfect. I have to be good enough. Even if I am not good enough I will not be the first person to ever hire someone who turns out to be a bad fit, and if they are I won't even necessarily have to fire them; if I do nothing at all they will magically go away in two months.
but I am still feeling justified in my position that, even though it will limit my career growth (there is no 'up' for me, only sideways), I do not want to supervise people, it stresses me out.
I did not have one in January. I came up with one in mid-March.
"Great," my boss said, "go hire that intern."
brain screeches. I have never hired anyone before. paperwork was confusing (and I was overthinking it). budget guy did something odd so that for a moment it looked like we did not have an intern in the budget but ultimately he signed off on it. job was posted.
then... I had to review the resumes.
oh god.
some of them were easy to rule out - 'you do not appear to be interested in working in my field or a related one in the long term so even though you do, in fact, have the major I'm looking for, good luck finding that medical research internship you would probably prefer.'
one of them was like 'you don't seem to be a good fit for my project but you appear to be a potentially great intern and possibly a permanent hire for that guy over there given some projects he's working on' and I had the recruiter forward the resume to him.
the rest of them? I had to rule up or down based on... the resume? the... vibes? mostly the vibes? screaming heebie-jeebies about this, "how will I know if I'm right?"
and then I realized I'm overthinking it again.
I'm hiring a summer intern. I do not have to be perfect. I have to be good enough. Even if I am not good enough I will not be the first person to ever hire someone who turns out to be a bad fit, and if they are I won't even necessarily have to fire them; if I do nothing at all they will magically go away in two months.
but I am still feeling justified in my position that, even though it will limit my career growth (there is no 'up' for me, only sideways), I do not want to supervise people, it stresses me out.
